na Amy Mullen
He kaukani nā nīnau a nā mākua i nīnau iā lākou iho i nā makahiki i ko lākou hānai ʻana i kā lākou mau keiki. ʻO ka nīnau makua nui a maʻamau: "Ke hana nei au i kēia pololei?" Ua ʻōhumu pinepine ʻia kēlā nīnau i ko mākou luliluli ʻana i ko mākou poʻo iā mākou iho. Makemake mākou e hana i ka hana maikaʻi loa i hiki iā mākou, a ke manaʻo pinepine nei mākou me he mea lā e hāʻule ana mākou, a kokoke paha e hāʻule. E like me ka mea i ʻike ʻia, ʻaʻole paʻakikī kekahi o kēia e like me kā mākou e manaʻo ai. I kekahi manawa, ʻo nā mea liʻiliʻi e hāʻawi i nā hopena nui loa.
Ua hānau mua ʻia kaʻu keiki i ka iwakāluakūmāwalu pule. Ua pule nui au i nā lā he kanahikukūmāhiku āna i noho ai ma NICU. I loko o kēlā mau pule, ua hoʻohiki wau e hoʻokiʻekiʻe au iā ia i kanaka maikaʻi. Inā hoʻokahi mea hiki iaʻu ke hana no ka hoʻopā ʻana o ke Akua, ʻo ia ka hoʻokiʻekiʻe ʻana iā ia e aloha i nā mea āpau a mālama i nā mea āpau me ka mahalo.
Ua hana mua wau i kahi hana maikaʻi loa me kaʻu kaikamahine. ʻAʻole kēia he kaena no ka mea ʻaʻohe oʻu manaʻo i kaʻu hana ʻana. ʻO ia, i ka ʻumikūmālima, ʻo ia ka poʻokela o ka underdog. Hoalohaloha ʻo ia i ka poʻe makemake i ka hoaaloha, ʻaʻole kūpono, a i ʻole mehameha. Hoʻohana ʻo ia i ka manawa me nā keiki ʻaʻole ʻike ʻia e nā keiki ʻē aʻe. He lokomaikaʻi ʻo ia a he puʻuwai hāmama. Haʻaheo wau iā ia, akā ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke lawe i ka mahalo a pau no ka wahine ʻōpio āna e lilo nei. Hāʻawi wau iā ia i ka hapa nui o ka hōʻaiʻē.
Manaʻo pinepine wau e hiki iaʻu ke hoʻohana i nā ʻenehana like me kaʻu keiki e like me kaʻu i hana ai me ia. ʻO ka pilikia me kēia ʻaʻole wau maopopo i kaʻu i hana ai a pehea wau i hana ai. Hoʻokahi haneli mau mea liʻiliʻi i ʻōlelo ʻia i loko o hoʻokahi haneli mau kamaʻilio koʻikoʻi i loaʻa iā mākou. He kamaʻilio ʻo ia a ua nui ʻo ia i ka nīnau nīnau. Ua ʻōlelo paha wau i nā mea kūpono i ka manawa kūpono, akā ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke maopopo.
ʻAʻole maikaʻi kēia me kaʻu keiki. ʻAʻole like ʻo ia i ke kamaʻilio e like me kaʻu kaikamahine i ka wā ʻōpio. Pono wau e noʻonoʻo i nā ala hou e hoʻolauna iā ia i nā mea like a kaʻu kaikamahine i nīnau mai ai iaʻu i kona wā e ulu ana. ʻO kaʻu mau hoʻāʻo e hoʻohuli i kona manaʻo, i kekahi manawa, ʻaʻole i hāʻule. Inā ʻaʻole wau e kamaʻilio e pili ana i ka helu liʻiliʻi o nā kumuhana i ʻike nui ʻia, ʻaʻole ʻo ia i hoihoi no kekahi mau minuke.
He keikikāne hilahila kaʻu keiki no laila ua paʻakikī iā ia ke wehe i ka poʻe ma waho o ko mākou hale no kekahi mau makahiki. He kumu Kula Sabati ko'u hoalauna a ua hilinai ka'u keiki iaia. Makemake ʻo ia e aʻo e pili ana i ke Akua a me Iesū ma o ia. Lawe ʻo ia i kāna mea e aʻo ai a holo pū me ia. Ua wehe kēia i kahi hiki i kēia manawa - ka pule.
E like me nā ʻohana haipule he nui, pule mākou i kēlā me kēia pō ma mua o ka moe. Ua like ka pule i kēlā me kēia pō, akā me ka wili. I ko mākou hoʻomaka ʻana e pule pū, hoʻohui au i kekahi mea ʻokoʻa ma ka pau ʻana o ka pule i kēlā me kēia pō. E hāʻawi wau i ka mahalo no kekahi mea mai ko mākou lā, a i ʻole e noi au i hoʻōla a pale paha i kahi mea a mākou e aloha ai. I ka wā mua, hana wau i kēia ma koʻu iho. Hoʻomanawanui kaʻu keiki i kēlā me kēia pō. Ma hope o kekahi manawa, ua hana hou au. Ma mua o ko mākou hoʻomaka ʻana e pule, e nīnau au iā ia i kāna manaʻo e mahalo ai mākou a no wai paha e pono ai kā mākou pule.
I ka wā mua, me he mea lā ʻaʻole maopopo ʻo ia i kāna mea e ʻōlelo ai. ʻAʻole naʻe au i haʻalele. Ke pane ʻole ʻo ia, hāʻawi wau i kekahi mau manaʻo i hiki iā ia ke koho i ka mea āna i manaʻo ai ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi. A laila, ho'ōki wau i ka hāʻawi ʻana iā ia i nā manaʻo a noi hou iā ia no kāna ponoʻī. Ua pumehana loa ko'u naau i ka mea i hanaia mahope.
Ua hopu ka'u keiki. ʻOiai ua mahalo ʻo ia i nā mea e like me ka manawa pāʻani me nā hoaaloha, a i ʻole kāna mea pāʻani hou loa, mahalo ʻo ia. ʻOiai ua ʻōlelo hou ʻo ia i ka noi hoʻokahi no ka ho'ōla ʻana, ua ʻike maoli ʻo ia i ka mea e pono ai ka pule. Ua mahalo ʻo ia i ka hiki ʻana i kona mau hoalauna ke kūʻai aku i ke kāloka hou e pono ai lākou. Ua mahalo ʻo ia no ka loaʻa ʻana o ke kumu maikaʻi ma ka papa ʻekahi. Mahalo pū ʻo ia i kona makuakāne i hoʻi mai ai mai ka hana mai me ka maluhia.
Ua ulu aʻela kona aloha i kāna pule ʻana i kēlā me kēia pō. Ke ʻōlelo nei au i ka hapa nui o nā huaʻōlelo nona, akā haʻi mai ʻo ia iaʻu i kāna mea e makemake ai e ʻōlelo i kona kūlou ʻana i kona poʻo i kēlā me kēia pō. Pule pinepine ʻo ia no kona kupuna wahine, ʻaʻole maikaʻi kona olakino. Pule ʻo ia no kahi hoaaloha e pilikia mau ana ma ke kula. Pule ʻo ia no ka poʻe kaumaha a ʻaʻohe hoaaloha.
Haʻaheo au i kaʻu keiki. Ma o kāna mau pule pule ʻike wau i kona aloha i nā poʻe ʻē aʻe e ulu nui ana. Ua ʻike maoli ʻo ia i ka mea e pono ai ka pule, a ke ʻike nei au i kēia ʻano aloha ke pāʻani ʻo ia me nā poʻe ʻē aʻe a me nā hōʻike mai kāna kumu. ʻAʻole ʻo ia i hoʻokaʻawale i kekahi no ka ʻokoʻa. ʻAʻole loa i loaʻa iaʻu kahi hōʻike no kāna ʻōlelo ʻana i kekahi mea kūpono ʻole i kekahi haumāna, ʻaʻole hoʻi ʻo ia i komo i kekahi hana hoʻoweliweli ma ke kula.
Haʻaheo wau iā ia a hiki i kēia manawa. Ua ʻike au i ka ʻehiku ʻaʻole hiki ke ʻōlelo ʻia e lilo ʻo ia i kukui ʻālohilohi o ka hoʻomanawanui, ke aloha, a me ke aloha, akā i kēia manawa he mea hoʻohiki. ʻAʻole maopopo iaʻu pehea e wehewehe ai i kona noʻonoʻo, akā e lawe wau. ʻAʻole maopopo iaʻu inā he kuleana wau, akā inā ʻo wau, no ka pule. Ma o ke Akua ua aʻo kaʻu keiki i ke aloha. E hana wau i nā mea a pau e hiki ai iaʻu ke hoʻoikaika i kēia i kona ulu ʻana i ke kanaka ʻōpio.
No laila, ʻoiai ke manaʻo nei mākou e nā mākua aia kekahi mau pane pohihihi a mākou e nalo nei, i kekahi manawa ʻo nā mea liʻiliʻi ka hopena nui a maikaʻi loa. ʻAʻole paʻakikī e like me kā mākou e manaʻo nei e hānai i nā keiki me ka puʻuwai maikaʻi a me ka noʻonoʻo hāmama. ʻO nā keiki e aloha kekahi i kekahi e hoʻololi i ka honua me ko lākou aloha i kekahi lā. ʻO kahi mea liʻiliʻi e like me ka pule hiki ke hoʻololi maoli.
ʻOi aku ka maikaʻi, ʻaʻole pono ʻoe e lilo i Karistiano e hoʻohana i kēia ʻano me kāu mau keiki. Hiki iā ʻoe ke hoʻomana - a i ʻole hoʻomana ʻole. Inā ʻaʻole ʻoe e pule, hiki iā ʻoe ke haʻalele i ka mahalo a me ka noʻonoʻo ʻana i kāu mau kamaʻilio ʻana i kēlā me kēia lā. ʻAʻole pono kēia mau kamaʻilio lōʻihi. He mau minuke wale nō ia i ka lā e hana i kahi honua o ka ʻokoʻa. ʻAʻole pono e mālama ʻia ka mahalo no ka lā hoʻomaikaʻi. ʻAʻole pono e mālama ʻia ka hoʻomaopopo ʻana i ke kanaka e hakakā nei a i ʻole pono i ke kōkua no ka lā i pae ai lākou i ka haukapila. Akā, hoʻohui nā manawa liʻiliʻi i kēlā me kēia lā i nā hopena kupaianaha.
ʻAʻole pono ʻoe e lilo i loea makua e hānai i nā keiki lokomaikaʻi. ʻAʻole pono ʻoe i kahi hoʻolālā paʻakikī e aʻo iā lākou e mālama i nā poʻe ʻē aʻe. ʻO nā mea a pau āu e hana ai, ʻo ke komo pū me lākou, hoʻolohe iā lākou, a aʻo pū me lākou. E hoʻohana i kou manaʻo a loaʻa iā ʻoe. Ma hope o nā mea a pau, ʻike maikaʻi ʻoe i kāu mau keiki.
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Visit Amy at https://www.amazon.com/Amy-Mullen/e/B00DM8U6FG/Amy Mullen is a freelance writer and romance author living in Corning, NY, with her husband, Patrick, her two children, and one not-so-ferocious feline named Liz. Amy is the author of A Stormy Knight, Her Darkest Knight, and Redefining Rayne. Her medieval romances are published through Cleanreads.com, formerly known as Astraea Press.
Amy has been writing about love both lost and regained since she was old enough to have her first broken heart. Her love of history and her intermittent jaunts into amateur genealogy led her to a love affair with writing historical fiction. When not writing, she snaps pictures, enjoys the company of her children, and when time allows, loves to bury her nose in a good book.
He mea kākau manuahi ʻo Amy Mullen a he mea kākau moʻolelo aloha e noho ana ma Corning, NY, me kāna kāne ʻo Patrick, kāna mau keiki ʻelua, a me kahi pua liʻiliʻi ʻole i kapa ʻia ʻo Liz. ʻO Amy ka mea kākau o A Stormy Knight, Her Darkest Knight, a me Redefining Rayne. Ua paʻi ʻia kāna mau mele kahiko ma o Cleanreads.com, i kapa ʻia ʻo Astraea Press.
Ua kākau ʻo Amy e pili ana i ke aloha i nalowale a loaʻa hou mai kona wā ʻelemakule e loaʻa ai kona puʻuwai ʻeha mua. ʻO kona aloha i ka mōʻaukala a me kāna mau huakaʻi hele ʻana i ka moʻokūʻauhau amateur alakaʻi iā ia i kahi aloha aloha me ke kākau moʻolelo moʻolelo. Ke kākau ʻole ʻo ia, paʻi ʻo ia i nā kiʻi, hauʻoli i ka hui ʻana o kāna mau keiki, a i ka wā e hiki ai ka manawa, makemake ʻo ia e kanu i kona ihu i kahi puke maikaʻi.
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